Decision: Organized thought piece

Decisions

For one reason or another we do things
some are unexplainable
and some are easily explained
all of these things we do are decisions
Lately I have been making BAD decisions
While none of them have teribble consequence
they still matter
and they are affecting me in small way
Going to the club during a school week
is a BAD decision
yet i do it nearly every thursday
and struggle through my two Friday classes
waiting until the last minute to do homework
is a BAD decision
yet I find myself asking professors
for extra time to turn things in
Not coming to class for without good reason
is a BAD decision
yet somehow my last class on tuesdays/thursdays
only sees me once a week
Talking to a boy until the wee hours of the morning
is a BAD decision
yet i chill with him until 3 or 4
and have the same problem that i do after going to the club
i'm falling for him though...?

Hey!! Its been about two weeks since the last time i wrote and a lot has happened since then. I have had my monroe piercing changed! i got my nails done for homecoming week. i'm so excited about it! even if we dont win im still gonna party that night! i plan on going out tonight! but anyway, other than that, I been looking into getting an apartment and thats also very exciting because im getting it with very best guy friend whom i love dearly. Oh and of course,I have my 18th birthday coming up!! i don't know what im doing that day and who im gonna see but i am anxious about that big day. i might go home and be with family or go out with my friends or some combination of both. time has been going by so fast here at usm. It seems like we just started but we've already had midterms! so far i have enjoyed it here at usm but not as much as i thought i would...i might just go somewhere else next year but i don't know where yet. I have been looking into a couple different places but who knows? i might just end up here next year. as long as I have my apartment i wont care. Well thats all i have to say for now...off to class!

Hey! Its been a little while since my last post! Lately everything seems to be going well! Im excited about life. I have had a couple issues with people but I still love them. Today was a good day too. Gas was at $2.65 at some gas station! You don't see that these days. I went to work and everything went really smooth. I got out of there by 9:09. Every other job that I have had has made me stay anywhere between 25 minutes to an hour cleaning up afterwards so that was another plus. I talked my mom and dad today which also made me happy. They are proud of me. It was my friend guy's birthday today so I called him to say happy birthday. He turned 19. Then, to end the night, I talked to my best friend. Today was wonderful! Tomorrow night I plan on going out with my friends and having fun! I still need an outfit but I plan on going to the mall tomorrow. I'm going home this weekend to watch the premiere of Degrassi: Next Generation. Its a Canadian show that describes teen problems and drama. I absolutely love the show. It inspired me to be an actress. I'm Probably coming back to hattiesburg on sunday. Im going to the fair with my friend guy on Saturday which should be fun because he has never been to the fair. I just want to get a funnel cake and a daquiri, virgin of course! hopefully my weekend will go as planned! till next time....

my piercing

Well I got an monroe piercing on wednesday night. That was QUITE an experience! i went with my friends who were also getting piercings. one got her belly button and the other one got her nose pierced. When I got mine done, I was really nervous because I thought the pain would be excrutiating. i sat down and held their hands. first he put a needle through it. Then he put something else through the same spot and told me to inhale. After i did, he told me to exhale and thats when I felt pain! My eyes watered but I didn't cry. I was really excited. I liked it a lot. On thursday, a lot of people asked me if it hurt. I told most of them that it only hurt a little bit. Today it feels fine. I took a lot of pictures of me!! it was fun! I dont think I will be hetting any more piercings though. I dont want any tattoos either. last night, my family saw it because I came home. They weren't on my side but they decided that they would grow into it. I think they will to. I already have!! i am only worried about it get infected but thats not even a big worry for me. I have been taking care of it! i can't wait until i can change it!

the people who mean the most

I love everyone in the way the Bible says we should
I don't posess hate in my heart
It would be nice if everyone could
And maybe then wars would never start

Unfortunately this is not the case
But the people that mean the most ease my mind
And they cause the space
Around my heart to unwind

I think I'm going to start with mommy and daddy
Who love me endlessly
Even when I'm being catty
And treating them senselessly

Forever I treasure them and what they taught me
I love them more than words could explain
From when they kiss me good night softly
And when they help me through pain

I Love my family as a whole
With all of our ups and downs
They mean more to me than gold
Where ever we are gathered, an abundance of joy is found

Then I have my bff, best friend forever
She feels what I feel from hundreds of mile away
She is with me in every endeavor
She loves me i love her our friendship will never fade

Following her is one of the greatest guys I know
He is my hunnybee and my best male friend
He makes me laugh when my days get slow
He will be a part of me until the end

My forbidden fruit comes next
I haven't known him for really long
But i love him nonetheless
He's like my favorite song

More than a lot of things in this lifetime
I love my play brother and sisters a plenty
Their hearts are one of a kind
If they needed it, I would give them my last penny

These are the people who mean the most
Their hearts shine from coast to coast

Juvenile

Juvenile
So it's Friday night and I went to go see Juvenile perform at Memories, a night club in Hattieburg. The entire experience was exciting! It was my second concert, my 1st being Lil Boosie at the end of August. Juvenile has been my favorite artist since I was 13. I have changed artists periodically but after the performance I saw, I think he can keep his title. As some of us know, his stepson killed his wife and four-year-old daughter, Jelani, about 6 months ago. To see him on stage with so much drive and passion after going through all that really touched me. It was almost as if he was doing it for them. The first song he performed, entitled "I'm Still Breathing" was dedicated to them. He sampled a couple of other songs that are going to be on his new album as well. But the highlights of the concert were the oldies because everyone was able to chime in on his performance as if they wrote the song. I know I did. I also enjoyed him holding my hand!! I felt like the people you see on T.V. who start screaming when they touch a celebrities hand. One of my favorite parts was when i got to see the tattoos on his forearms that read "Nolia" on one and "Boy" on the other. Up until that point, I had only seen pictures so to actually see them was amazing! His whole performance knocked my socks off and inspired me a lot. Juve The Great" is what he calls himself. He earned it.

The hurricane

The hurricane really scared everyone. I thought the power was gonna go out in my hometown, Brandon, MS. However, it didnt so we all just ate because it was labor day. We had an assortment of barbecue as well as desserts. I was going to cook but I didn't. It was raining really hard so I was unable to go get groceries. I also got to see one of my best guy friends. Visiting with friends always makes me happy. Family is important too. We had family from New Orleans staying at my grandmother's house and we all had fun. I met family that I didn't know I had. We stayed up watching the BET Awards. I came back to my Grandma's house Tuesday because family was there. We all ate and talked and prayed. I got on the road at about 5 that evening on the way back to school and got back and about 6:30. I did some homework. Then I got my stuff ready for the next day.